Hectic day today.
After being exposed to the ruthless cold at the supermarket, I feel like my bones are about to shatter like thin glass. I knew I should've brought a jacket. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I remember feeling like this one Christmas morning and when I decided to rest that day, it only got worse and became one hell of a fever.
So here I am, not resting.
So I was just thinking about it.. you know, college and sh--uh, stuff. The whole growing up thing still rigs up my brain like there's this hectic world in my head that I've been living in and then, just suddenly, all the chaos is taken out. There's just that silence.
All the car crash sounds and collapsing building echoes are just gone like there were never there at all. And every song I've ever loved has just died because there's a different world to live in now.
It's hard to go to school without counting who I might never see again. The worst moments are when I count the people I've grown up with. Some friendships must be sacrificed but not mine.
It's so unbearably typical that we have to go through this. Yea, sure, practically the whole world's gone through it and survived but what if, one day, I'll miss everyone so much that it'll just slap me in the face so hard that I fall and never get up?
Then everything just collapses from there...
Sigh.
It's just such a dangerous game to play.
But, then again, you know, bring it on.
After being exposed to the ruthless cold at the supermarket, I feel like my bones are about to shatter like thin glass. I knew I should've brought a jacket. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I remember feeling like this one Christmas morning and when I decided to rest that day, it only got worse and became one hell of a fever.
So here I am, not resting.
So I was just thinking about it.. you know, college and sh--uh, stuff. The whole growing up thing still rigs up my brain like there's this hectic world in my head that I've been living in and then, just suddenly, all the chaos is taken out. There's just that silence.
All the car crash sounds and collapsing building echoes are just gone like there were never there at all. And every song I've ever loved has just died because there's a different world to live in now.
It's hard to go to school without counting who I might never see again. The worst moments are when I count the people I've grown up with. Some friendships must be sacrificed but not mine.
It's so unbearably typical that we have to go through this. Yea, sure, practically the whole world's gone through it and survived but what if, one day, I'll miss everyone so much that it'll just slap me in the face so hard that I fall and never get up?
Then everything just collapses from there...
Sigh.
It's just such a dangerous game to play.
But, then again, you know, bring it on.
Yeah, bring it on. That attitude will take you places.
Not seeing them again? Choosing to live knowing that they will cease or ceasing to know (or to remember) that they are alive? Let's not wait for that slap.
Keep writing!
Posted by
mac |
8:52 AM
Maw! IloveitIloveitIloveit! Haha... left me speechless at the end but hey... here I am struggling with much deserved praise for you!! Haha... I want to give you a beeeg hug... HUG... haha.. so there. Haha... guess what I remembered while I was reading your blog?? *raises eyebrows and cackles* I don't think I can mention it here though... I'm pretty sure you'd kill me in school. Thank God Tina is the only one, aside from us, who remembers.
Posted by
JustANearInstanceforNurturingEveryone |
4:23 AM
I miss reading your stuff. Now all I'm stuck with is a well-written blog. Oh, how I do miss Don't Get Me Wro-I MEAN Unhealing W-okay never mind.
Sacrifice friendships? I'd sooner die.
*dies*
awcrap
Posted by
Katrinized. |
12:48 AM
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